Alone But Not Lonely?
am i the only one who feels like this ?
For as long as I can remember I’ve felt alone. Since I was a child I’ve always felt like it was just me. Maybe my parents being how they are played a part in it. I think a child who can’t find comfort in either of their parents finds themselves feeling lost. Your place in the world starts with your parents and so when that’s void what do you have? Where do you search? Perhaps your peers, friends, tv, social media, maybe music?
We look for belonging because it’s important. It’s important to belong to something. I want to belong to something. I find myself going through life feeling like i’m floating. I never really feel like myself. I feel isolated in a room full of people which feels cliche to say but it’s true.
I’ve always felt a bit disconnected from everyone else. Everything I do feels out of body. Nothing feels real. My head is always somewhere else. I have to be really enjoying whatever I’m doing to give it real attention, and even then it still feels weird.
Titles states that I feel alone but not lonely, but with the way this article is going it’s sounding like I might be… I suppose those 2 are interchangeable according to the situation. I think I feel lonely sometimes because I feel very misunderstood. I also feel as though I notice everything and so when other people don’t see it I guess it makes me feel weird.
I’m just tired of feeling this way. I want to feel like myself. Whatever that is or means. I want to be able to be present and enjoy life and my experiences. I don’t want to feel alone anymore.